You ain't like anybody else...

on Halloween night M. and i were somewhat impatiently waiting in a never-ending line to get into a club, but there was two cute guys in front of us, so that made waiting much more bearable. one of the cute guys turned around and asked us if we minded his cigarette smoke and i told him that i didn't mind as long as he gave me one.

he was wearing aviator glasses, a green visor, plaid shorts, white socks, and was holding a fly-swatter. i asked him what his costume was supposed to be and he said that he was Raoul Duke in Hunter S. Thompson's Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas.

i never finished watching that film, and i was attracted to cute guy's originality and chivalry.

that being said, i Netflixed Gonzo: The Life and Work of Dr. Hunter S. Thompson and intend to watch it soon.

My Heart is an Apple.

2009 is going to be an awesome year.



"I'll admit I'm full of shit,

that's how I know I love you,

that's how I know I trust you..."

Christmas at Chelsea's.

And you don't judge me, that's not your style...

Conor Oberst performing "Cape Canaveral" on the Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson. he's my husband!!!

Ladri di Biciclette.

directed by Vittorio De Sica and set in Rome post World War II, The Bicycle Thief is a story about desperation, perseverance, and impoverishment. it won the Golden Globe for best foreign film in 1950. the ending is heartbreaking...and the acting is excellent. i never really get the desire to buy movies, but this is one that i must add to my collection.

trailer:

How could you be so Dr. Evil?

Heartless from kwest on Vimeo.

Take It Easy (Love Nothing).

it's freezing, i'm alone, and i have a Bright Eyes song on repeat. my life is too exciting for my life.

"Now I do as I please and lie through my teeth
Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me
I should probably feel cheap but I just feel free...
and a little bit empty
No, it isn't so hard to get close to me
There will be no arguments
We will always agree
And I'll try and be kind when I ask you to leave
We'll both take it easy
But if you stay too long inside my memory,
I will trap you in a song tied to a melody
and I will keep you there so you can't bother me..."

Pop Culture Orgasm.

i didn't have internet access for 4 days, and the only thing that i missed was reading the Pop Candy blog. that girl knows everything! she is on top of her shit. i have discovered so many things from her. she pleases my mainstream lust.

i <3 Whitney.

Next Saturday...

i will be watching Little Joy perform. yaaaaaay!!

The hurting.

the new Kanye West album is excellent. every song is a gem, it's awesome. one of his best songs, "Coldest Winter" is sampled from the Tears For Fears song "Memories Fade". the song is great, and the lyrics are sooo sad, i love them of course. finally, a song that understands my plight.

There's only need
I love your need
So much I'm losing me
I cannot see the reason for the pain
With hungry joy
I'll be your toy
Just hoping you will play
Without hope my body starts to fail

Memories fade but the scars still linger
Goodbye my friend
Will I ever love again
Memories fade but the scars still linger

I cannot grow
I cannot move
I cannot feel my age
The vice like grip of tension holds me fast
Engulfed by you
What can I do
When history's my cage
Look foward to a future in the past

The more I talk
The more I say
The less you seem to hear
I'm speechless in a most peculiar way
Your mind is weak
Your need is great
And nothing is too dear
For you to use to take the pain away
Memories fade
No don't pretend you can justify the end
Memories fade but the scars still linger

Well I'm afraid of changing...

"Because here's something else that's weird but true: in the day-to day trenches of adult life, there is actually no such thing as atheism. There is no such thing as not worshipping. Everybody worships. The only choice we get is what to worship. And the compelling reason for maybe choosing some sort of god or spiritual-type thing to worship -- be it JC or Allah, bet it YHWH or the Wiccan Mother Goddess, or the Four Noble Truths, or some inviolable set of ethical principles -- is that pretty much anything else you worship will eat you alive. If you worship money and things, if they are where you tap real meaning in life, then you will never have enough, never feel you have enough. It's the truth. Worship your body and beauty and sexual allure and you will always feel ugly. And when time and age start showing, you will die a million deaths before they finally grieve you. On one level, we all know this stuff already. It's been codified as myths, proverbs, clichés, epigrams, parables; the skeleton of every great story. The whole trick is keeping the truth up front in daily consciousness."

-David Foster Wallace

50 reasons to have sex.

LMAO!! i can't stop cracking up over this awesome list from How I Met Your Mother. there's no doubt that this show is one of the best ever! my favorites are numbers 29, 38, and 49.

p.s. i fucking love Portishead soooo much!!!

Another Christmas present.

i so never got this show while it was on. it's sad that it will never be back on because the actors are too big now. it hurts my heart...i will always miss you Freaks and Geeks.

Why isn't he my boy-friend?!!!

Justin Timberlake is funny. I love him!!

Big boys don't cry.

10cc- I'm Not in Love

Yes!

the lovely Nicole Kidman is on the cover of my new Glamour magazine and she says some inspiring words:

"I have girl-friends in their twenties, and I say, "Ask me anything. You can learn from the things I did wrong, and you can learn from the things you think I'm doing right. Take whatever you want and make it your own. "So: Have no regrets. Every relationship leads you to where you're meant to be. Learn to be comfortable with being alone. Learn to be comfortable with saying no to people; we put everybody else before ourselves. Read great literature; don't get all your information from TV. Define your moral-code-nobody else is going to give you that. Find it yourself. Keep asking questions, keep challenging. You don't have to conform. Rebellion creates character. And, as my mother always said to me, "Don't let anyone break your spirit!"

Pixar is the bomb.

from my favorite blog ever (Pop Candy). i love The Incredibles, Wall-E, Toy Story, basically anything Pixar does. this is the trailer for their next film, Up.

Christmas present??

i only feel a little guilty wanting this book.

Poor kitties.

it's not an everyday thing to have 3 sick cats in the house...

Harry, ear mites and infested bite wounds.

Sally, self-inflicted scratches due to bothersome flea bites.

and Woo, who likes the L.A. Times and is refusing to eat.

oh and Sissy has been missing for over a week now. i'm hoping she's not sick somewhere.

Marshall's video.

Weird Fishes/Arpeggi.

"Everybody leaves
If they get the chance
And this is my chance..."

President Obama.

this gives me the chills. it brings tears to my eyes, it's so excellent.

That's two.

i recently got into How I Met Your Mother and it's soooo freaking hilarious!! i love Neil Patrick Harris, he's the best! he's also great in the Dr. Horrible blog. it's a must see!
this video is from season 2, when Barney (Neil Patrick Harris) makes them sit through his horrible one-man play...because that's what friends do.

I gotcha number.

i just killed the last half of my bag of flaming hot cheetos and that's just not enough.
so, upcoming shows, yes! it feels like forever since my last concert...yeah, it's going to be a month. that's too long for my life.

Nov 16th:




Nov. 17th at The Pehrspace, Los Angeles: The Monolators. only 5 bucks, i loves it.


Dec 6th at Detroit Bar, Costa Mesa: Little Joy. Fab Moretti from The Strokes is in the band. maybe Megapuss will be there too, how awesome would that be? only REALLY awesome!


Jan 21st at The El Rey Theatre, Los Angeles: Metronomy. i can't wait to rock out to "Heartbreaker".


i need some more in my life.

The fear.

i hate knowing what it feels like to have your heart savagely ripped out of your chest and stabbed repeatedly, destroyed beyond recognition, mutilated...i miss my innocence and wish that i had enjoyed it more.
i'm afraid of the night...i'm afraid of 9pm and 10pm and 11pm...and especially 2am...because that's when all the demons start coming out and i'm no match for them.

Why The Simpsons rule!!

Movies I need to see.

sadly, i've had no time to go to the theatre. the movies i want to see are not playing anywhere except for L.A., of course, and that makes it kind of impossible to see them, because of issues out of my control. :( well actually, there's one playing near me, but that's the one i could wait for.

1. Lola Montes: (Foreign) The film tells the tragical story of the life of Lola Montes who was a great adventurer and stopped being the attraction of her circus after having been the lover of various important men.

2. Happy-Go-Lucky: Poppy (Sally Hawkins) is a life-loving, irrepressibly cheerful, Pollyanna-type primary school teacher who is thirty years old, single, and infinitely optimistic and accepting. She lives with her best friend and flatmate Zoe (Alexis Zegerman) in London. She is tested by a repressed driving instructor with anger problems (Eddie Marsan), and tests him in turn. She has exciting flamenco lessons, an encounter with a homeless man, a row with her pregnant sister, and a love-affair with the social worker guiding one of her students.

3. Good Dick: A look at the relationship between a lonely introverted girl and a young video store clerk vying for her attention.

4. Rachel Getting Married: "Rachel Getting Married" is a contemporary "drama with an aggressive sense of humor" about the return of an estranged daughter to the family home for her sister's wedding. Kym's reemergence throws a wrench into the family dynamics, forcing long-simmering tensions to surface in ways both hilarious and heartbreaking. "Rachel Getting Married" paints a colorful, nuanced family portrait.

I want you.

soooo stole this idea from another blog i frequent, but oh wells, at least i'm giving credit, hehehehe!

Zach...i know you do McArdiente (even though you've only known me for two weeks)

still got nothing but love for you Paris...you inspire me!

question to ponder...why is ice-cream like a little piece of heaven?

"i want you,

just exactly like i used to,

and baby this is only bringing me dowwwwn...."

WTF.

i'm such a lunatic. i spend so much time worrying myself to ulcer degree...with the same questions every day:
'how will i, how much should i, how do i, how can i, what am i, what will happen if, what does that mean, what about if, where do i, where should i, when will i, when will...'
oh and my favorite one: I want. i want, i want, i want, i want, i'm so tired of wanting! and i need is very much confused with i want.
aaaarrrgggghhh. i mentally exhaust myself, and it's like i don't how to turn off my brain. i tell myself to breathe and relax and just take one day at a time, and then something will happen, and it starts all over again. i over-analyze, over-think, and over-feel. i wish i possessed a more care-free nature, an inner halcyon...*sigh*
blah-dee-blah-blah...(my perfect ending to my boringness)

Once there was a way, to get back homeward...

i ADORE the Beatles. 'love' is too weak a word to define how i feel about this band. (thanks Prince, lol.) today there's a one-night only screening of All Together Now, a documentary about Love, the Beatles-themed Cirque De Soleil show. the DVD comes out tomorrow, but unless one has a projector screen or a giant TV, it just won't be the same.

thanks Amie, for telling me about Abbey Road, the most perfect, beautiful, and sexiest album ever. i love singing "Carry That Weight" at the top of my lungs!

to see locations and showtimes, please click here: http://www.thebiggerpicture.us/together/index.html

Boy-you're gonna carry that weight,

carry that weight a long time.

I never give you my pillow,
I only send you my invitations,

And in the middle of the celebrations
I break down.

Death of an Olympus Camedia C-60 ZOOM.

last night at the party i was in the middle of a semi-heated philosophical discussion with my cousin when all of a sudden my camera freed itself from my hands and boom crash bip! fell to the ground. being on the drunk side, i didn't give it much thought, except for, "it can handle it." but i overestimated how strong my old camera is. the lens keeps struggling to make it's way back inside it's body, i can hear it whining every so often. it's dying, and i can't help but feel bad for it, because i was emotionally cheating on it this last week, since my mind has been fixated on obtaining the Sony Cyber Shot DSC T-700. now i just have to remember the good times we've shared...it's been a fine camera for the last 3 years. however, this couldn't have happened at a worse time, because i'm disgustingly poooor and a new camera is not necessarily what i need...although i do love taking pictures. how can i not want this camera, it's perfect for me!! it's freaking pink!

the screen is huge, i looove it!

Surfing (on a rocket)...

i have a huge crush on Devendra Banhart and find his hairy savageness sexy. i can't stop listening to Megapuss, his new band. it's full of hand-clapping and meditative doo-wop like sounds...it's fulfilling my listening needs this week.

Non sum qualis eram bonae sub regno Cynarae.

my horoscope said that i would be feeling romantic today...

Non sum qualis eram bonae sub regno Cynarae

Last night, ah yesternight, betwixt her lips and mine

There fell thy shadow, Cynara! thy breath was shed

Upon my soul between the kisses and the wine;

And I was desolate and sick of an old passion,

Yea, I was desolate and bowed my head:

I have been faithful to thee, Cynara! in my fashion.

All night long upon mine heart I felt her warm heart beat

Night-long within mine arms in love and sleep she lay;

Surely the kisses of her bought red mouth were sweet;

But I was desolate and sick of an old passion,

When I awoke and found the dawn was gray:

I have been faithful to thee, Cynara! in my fashion.

I have forgot much Cynara! gone with the wind,

Flung roses, roses riotously with the throng,

Dancing, to put thy pale, lost lilies out of mind;

But I was desolate and sick of an old passion,

Yea, all the time, because the dance was long:

I have been faithful to thee, Cynara! in my fashion.

I cried for madder music and for stronger wine,

But when the feast is finished and the lamps expire,

Then falls thy shadow, Cynara! the night is thine;

And I am desolate and sick of an old passion,

Yea, hungry for the lips of my desire:

I have been faithful to thee Cynara! in my fashion.

*Sigh* It's by Ernest Dowson. The title means: I am not what I was under the reign of the lovely Cynara.

Mi amor, Jon Hamm.

ahhh this man...he just makes me feel all tingly and stuff.

Phreshest shit.

so yesterday i had time to download a lot of new music and i listened to all these bands whilst cleaning my house and room.

-Deerhoof- Offend Maggie- just as weird as i thought, and only really enjoyed one song, "Chandelier Searchlight".

-El Guincho- Alegranza- very loud and would make anyone move, at least their heads.

-Marnie Stern- This Is It and I Am It and You Are It and So Is That and He- her voice wasn't as high-pitched as i thought, and every song kind of sounds the same to me.

i also got Gang Gang Dance and Mercury Rev, but i haven't had a chance to listen to them yet. i just can't stop listening to Brazilian Girls, they're so wonderful to my life right now.